I don't know what happened to u mah.
Please don't take it to heart.
It's difficult, but I will try to heed your kind advice. I really hope to be able to meet you one day and thank you in person for helping me to see my shortcomings.
I used to fish a lot (as a hobby, not livelihood) before I was sent to prison. It helped me to unwind and relax; I find it better than meditation. I may need to resume this hobby as after talking to you, I realise all these ill-will and grudges I have against His Holiness, the Venerable Tenzin Drachom, is petty, unnecessary, stressful and is not harming him or anyone else but myself.
Thanks to the Yellow Ribbon Project, one of my ex-prison mates now owns his own kelong business. Business is so-so but it's his own business, so he is happy and contented. Perhaps one day, we can meet in one of the Changi pubs for a drink and then go fishing together at his kelong.