[Confession : I have two accounts here. I haven't been here for a while, so I couldn't remember the first account password. I have resorted to use this sort of new and unapproved account, which seems to work with the password in my recollection]
I am sort of troubled.
It's been a while I have dated. Maybe I am out of touch(?) or too shy/sensitive(?), or maybe, I am just wary of men(?)
I like this guy. He's my colleague. A few years younger than me but he's always there when I need advice/assistance in my work.
And so we finally dated last night. After dinner at East Coast Park hawker centre, we walked to a vacant breakwater and chatted about life, work, family, friends, etc.
I guessed sitting in close proximity to each other probably made us sort of “excited”. And so we kissed. I liked it and I think he probably wanted it. It was sort of very passionate kiss, which I haven't had for a very long long time.
He then touched and felt for my breast in the midst of our passionate kiss. He didn't ask me if he could and probably thought I was fine with his slick "manoeuvre".
It wasn't that I wasn't enjoying his gentle but firm caress of my breasts. It was actually enjoyable since I last had them caressed by my ex.
However, I suddenly felt maybe(?) we are proceeding a bit too fast on our first date. So I gently moved his hand away to my waist where I was comfortable being touched and held.
At that moment, he sort of ended our passionate kiss and it was rather awkward for both of us.
I wanted to tell him I wasn't rejecting him. However I didn't want to get into a discussion that might make this relationship a non starter.
Today, he's sort of avoiding me in the office. I asked him for lunch and he said he needed to rush out some important stuff for his line manager.
Is this relationship over as a consequence of my sort of refusal to allow him to caress my breasts?
Why men can't handle a little "setback"?
Or maybe, he's just not mature enough for me(?)
Any thoughts?
