George Sodini
Age 48.
DOB 9/30/1960
DOD 8/4/2009
5-10, 155 lbs.
Never married.
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania USA
Me
Why do this?? To young girls? Just read below. I kept a running log that
includes my thoughts and actions, after I saw this project was going to drag on.
November 5, 2008:
Planned to do this in the summer but figure to stick around to see the election
outcome. This particular one got so much attention and I was just curious. Not
like I give a flying fcuk who won, since this exit plan was already planned.
Good luck to Obama! He will be successful. The liberal media LOVES him. Amerika
has chosen The Black Man. Good! In light of this I got ideas outside of Obama's
plans for the economy and such. Here it is: Every black man should get a young
white girl hoe to hone up on. Kinda a reverse indentured servitude thing. Long
ago, many a older white male landowner had a young Negro wench girl for his
desires. Bout' time tables are turned on that shit. Besides, dem young white
hoez dig da bruthrs! LOL. More so than they dig the white dudes! Every daddy
know when he sends his little girl to college, she be bangin a bruthr real good.
I saw it. "Not my little girl", daddy says! (Yeah right!!) Black dudes have
thier choice of best white hoez. You do the math, there are enough young white
so all the brothers can each have one for 3 or 6 months or so.
December 22, 2008:
Time is moving along. Planned to have this done already. I will just keep a
running log here as time passes. Many of the young girls here look so beautiful
as to not be human, very edible. After joining this gym, started lifting weights
and like it. Much info about weight programs, diet etc on the web. Or anything
for that matter. Instead of TV I can Google for hours to relax. TV and most
movies are dull.
December 24, 2008:
Moving into Christmas again. No girlfriend since 1984, last Christmas with Pam
was in 1983. Who knows why. I am not ugly or too weird. No sex since July 1990
either (I was 29). No shit! Over eighteen years ago. And did it maybe only 50-75
times in my life. Getting to think that a woman now would just, uh, get in the
way of things. Isolated. I have extra money and enjoy traveling, too, wtih my
25-30 days of vacation. LA was the best! But going alone is not too fun. Invited
to a party on Christmas day tomorrow. Seems about 15-25 people will actually
show. I like her parties; I can meet new people and talk. Got the next 8 days
off. I should have exit plan done and practiced by then. I know nothing will
change, no matter how hard I try or what goals I set.
December 28, 2008:
Glad I stayed around. All these days off are great. I will shoot for Tuesday,
January 6, 2009, at maybe 8:15. I have list of to-do items to make.
December 29, 2008:
Just got back from tanning, been doing this for a while. No gym today, my elbow
is sore again. I actually look good. I dress good, am clean-shaven, bathe, touch
of cologne - yet 30 million women rejected me - over an 18 or 25-year period.
That is how I see it. Thirty million is my rough guesstimate of how many
desirable single women there are. A man needs a woman for confidence. He gets a
boost on the job, career, with other men, and everywhere else when he knows
inside he has someone to spend the night with and who is also a friend. This
type of life I see is a closed world with me specifically and totally excluded.
Every other guy does this successfully to a degree. Flying solo for many years
is a destroyer. Yet many people say I am easy to get along with, etc. Looking
back, I owe nothing to desirable females who ask for anything, except for basic
courtesy - usually. Looking back over everything, what bothers me most is the
inability to work towards whatever change I choose.
December 30, 2008:
While driving I radio surfed to a talk show. The caller was a 30ish black man
who was describing the despair in certain black communities. According to him,
life is cheap there because you are going to die anyway when you get old. It is
the quality of life that is important, he said. If you know the past 40 years
were crappy, why live another 30 crappy years then die? His point was they
engage in dangerous behavior which tends to shorten the lifespans, to die now
and avoid the next 30 crappy years, using my example. The host got sarcastic and
ended the call instead of trying understanding his point. Agreement wasn't
necesary. I put music back on. But it was an interesting, and useful point for
me to hear.
December 31, 2008:
My anger and rage is largely gone since I began lifting weights. Lifting drains
me but I still have energy. Somebody else suggested running but that did not
help me. I guess strenuous exercise is necesary for a man. So I just learned
that now at 48. Maybe 30 years later than I would have liked. My dad never (not
once) talked to me or asked about my life's details and tell me what he knew. He
was just a useless sperm doner. Don't know why, find it fun talking to young
kids when I visit someone. Brother was actually counter-productive and would try
to embarase me or discourage my efferts when persuing things, esp girls early on
(teen years). Useless bully. Result is I am learning basics by trial and error
in my 40s, followed by discuragement. Seems odd, but thats true. Writing all
this is helping me justify my plan and to see the futility of continuing. Too
embarassed to tell anyone this, at almost 50 one is expected to just know these
things.
I hope it doesn't snow on Tuesday. Just thought of that. The crowd will be thin
so I would postpone. Shit!
Now that I am on the topic of family and people I know, I might as well make a
summary of sorts to show where things stand. This is New Years Eve I have time,
no date tonight of course, so:
Honorable mention:
Tetelestai Church in Pittsburgh, PA - "Be Ye Holy, even as I have been Ye holy!
Thus saith the lord thy God!", as pastor Rick Knapp would proclaim. Holy shit,
religion is a waste. But this guy teaches (and convinced me) you can commit mass
murder then still go to heaven. Ask him. Call him at (724) 325-2655. If no
answer there, he should still live at 439 9th Street, Oakmont, PA 15139. In any
case, guilt and fear kept me there 13 long years until Nov 2006. I think his
crap did the most damage. Their web site: http://www.tetelestai.org.
Mum - The Central Boss. 717 Highview Road, Pgh PA 15234. Don't piss her off or
she will be mad and vindictive for years. She actually thinks she's normal. Very
dominant. Her way and only her way with no flexibility toward everyone in the
household. A power and control thing. People outside the immediate family like
her. Why are people vicious with their closest ones? She is the Boss above all
other Bosses.
Michael Sodini - A Boss, my brother (Mike Sodini) 216 Horseshoe Dr, Mars PA -
Always the big bully, twice the size of most others. When he bullied or harassed
someone, it was the other person who "deserved it". It was always about him. Way
to self absorbed, too. Still is. Used to like to embarrass guys in front of
their girlfriends. Lots of other shit. Kind of guy you actually loved to hate.
The biggest, most self-centered jagoff I know. He took those bullying "skills"
into the business world and is doing good financially. He is a big wheel only in
his mind. Most people can see thru all his manipulation. He calls only when he
wants something.
Sherry - sister - More of a victim than anything. Copes by exercising much
control over her adult children. We used to be close until her control of L & D
caused a conflict. Never the same after.
David - neph, sis's son (girlfriend Mallory Squires). Good young guy, though.
Lisa - niece, sis's daught. Attractive, smart, emotional - all good YW
qualities.
Idiots:
Andy Pulkowski - I have been in barrooms and church groups. The worst people by
far are the religious types. Especially a right-wing, stiff-faced fundie like
Andy. A condescending, demeaning, passive-aggresive person. Frigid, rigid,
linear and totally inflexible. Being a very serious person, he cannot hide his
frown-lined face. He better not try to smile; lest his face might crack. I knew
children of parents who grew up in strict religious homes. Religion has a
certain stink to it of guilt, shame, fear, and that moral standard that always
contradicts the natural tendencies and desires of a person. Therin lies the
conflict. Young person cannot experiment with things to decide on their own and
establish their own parameters. So they tend to cut loose and really rebel much
worse than the average young person. Ma and Pa never know what goes on. They
easily BS their parents because they want to believe their little one is an
angel. Andy has a young daughter Bethany Pulkowski away at college, High Point
University. I saw her picture on his desk. She's your basic, attractive, young
girl. Please reread my entry made on Nov 5th. That's only one thing she can do.
You Andy types out there need to further strengthen your strict resolve and do
more of the same thing! Because those girls were great when I recall my college
years! She is someone's (or many guy's) little hoe now, I am sure.
Another point about andy. How can someone be cold, vicious, sarcastic and
generally nasty ALL THE TIME and then make the claim about their church life and
how good they are? Total hypocritical idiots.
That's all for now. That felt good.
Let's continue...
Age 48.
DOB 9/30/1960
DOD 8/4/2009
5-10, 155 lbs.
Never married.
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania USA
Me
Why do this?? To young girls? Just read below. I kept a running log that
includes my thoughts and actions, after I saw this project was going to drag on.
November 5, 2008:
Planned to do this in the summer but figure to stick around to see the election
outcome. This particular one got so much attention and I was just curious. Not
like I give a flying fcuk who won, since this exit plan was already planned.
Good luck to Obama! He will be successful. The liberal media LOVES him. Amerika
has chosen The Black Man. Good! In light of this I got ideas outside of Obama's
plans for the economy and such. Here it is: Every black man should get a young
white girl hoe to hone up on. Kinda a reverse indentured servitude thing. Long
ago, many a older white male landowner had a young Negro wench girl for his
desires. Bout' time tables are turned on that shit. Besides, dem young white
hoez dig da bruthrs! LOL. More so than they dig the white dudes! Every daddy
know when he sends his little girl to college, she be bangin a bruthr real good.
I saw it. "Not my little girl", daddy says! (Yeah right!!) Black dudes have
thier choice of best white hoez. You do the math, there are enough young white
so all the brothers can each have one for 3 or 6 months or so.
December 22, 2008:
Time is moving along. Planned to have this done already. I will just keep a
running log here as time passes. Many of the young girls here look so beautiful
as to not be human, very edible. After joining this gym, started lifting weights
and like it. Much info about weight programs, diet etc on the web. Or anything
for that matter. Instead of TV I can Google for hours to relax. TV and most
movies are dull.
December 24, 2008:
Moving into Christmas again. No girlfriend since 1984, last Christmas with Pam
was in 1983. Who knows why. I am not ugly or too weird. No sex since July 1990
either (I was 29). No shit! Over eighteen years ago. And did it maybe only 50-75
times in my life. Getting to think that a woman now would just, uh, get in the
way of things. Isolated. I have extra money and enjoy traveling, too, wtih my
25-30 days of vacation. LA was the best! But going alone is not too fun. Invited
to a party on Christmas day tomorrow. Seems about 15-25 people will actually
show. I like her parties; I can meet new people and talk. Got the next 8 days
off. I should have exit plan done and practiced by then. I know nothing will
change, no matter how hard I try or what goals I set.
December 28, 2008:
Glad I stayed around. All these days off are great. I will shoot for Tuesday,
January 6, 2009, at maybe 8:15. I have list of to-do items to make.
December 29, 2008:
Just got back from tanning, been doing this for a while. No gym today, my elbow
is sore again. I actually look good. I dress good, am clean-shaven, bathe, touch
of cologne - yet 30 million women rejected me - over an 18 or 25-year period.
That is how I see it. Thirty million is my rough guesstimate of how many
desirable single women there are. A man needs a woman for confidence. He gets a
boost on the job, career, with other men, and everywhere else when he knows
inside he has someone to spend the night with and who is also a friend. This
type of life I see is a closed world with me specifically and totally excluded.
Every other guy does this successfully to a degree. Flying solo for many years
is a destroyer. Yet many people say I am easy to get along with, etc. Looking
back, I owe nothing to desirable females who ask for anything, except for basic
courtesy - usually. Looking back over everything, what bothers me most is the
inability to work towards whatever change I choose.
December 30, 2008:
While driving I radio surfed to a talk show. The caller was a 30ish black man
who was describing the despair in certain black communities. According to him,
life is cheap there because you are going to die anyway when you get old. It is
the quality of life that is important, he said. If you know the past 40 years
were crappy, why live another 30 crappy years then die? His point was they
engage in dangerous behavior which tends to shorten the lifespans, to die now
and avoid the next 30 crappy years, using my example. The host got sarcastic and
ended the call instead of trying understanding his point. Agreement wasn't
necesary. I put music back on. But it was an interesting, and useful point for
me to hear.
December 31, 2008:
My anger and rage is largely gone since I began lifting weights. Lifting drains
me but I still have energy. Somebody else suggested running but that did not
help me. I guess strenuous exercise is necesary for a man. So I just learned
that now at 48. Maybe 30 years later than I would have liked. My dad never (not
once) talked to me or asked about my life's details and tell me what he knew. He
was just a useless sperm doner. Don't know why, find it fun talking to young
kids when I visit someone. Brother was actually counter-productive and would try
to embarase me or discourage my efferts when persuing things, esp girls early on
(teen years). Useless bully. Result is I am learning basics by trial and error
in my 40s, followed by discuragement. Seems odd, but thats true. Writing all
this is helping me justify my plan and to see the futility of continuing. Too
embarassed to tell anyone this, at almost 50 one is expected to just know these
things.
I hope it doesn't snow on Tuesday. Just thought of that. The crowd will be thin
so I would postpone. Shit!
Now that I am on the topic of family and people I know, I might as well make a
summary of sorts to show where things stand. This is New Years Eve I have time,
no date tonight of course, so:
Honorable mention:
Tetelestai Church in Pittsburgh, PA - "Be Ye Holy, even as I have been Ye holy!
Thus saith the lord thy God!", as pastor Rick Knapp would proclaim. Holy shit,
religion is a waste. But this guy teaches (and convinced me) you can commit mass
murder then still go to heaven. Ask him. Call him at (724) 325-2655. If no
answer there, he should still live at 439 9th Street, Oakmont, PA 15139. In any
case, guilt and fear kept me there 13 long years until Nov 2006. I think his
crap did the most damage. Their web site: http://www.tetelestai.org.
Mum - The Central Boss. 717 Highview Road, Pgh PA 15234. Don't piss her off or
she will be mad and vindictive for years. She actually thinks she's normal. Very
dominant. Her way and only her way with no flexibility toward everyone in the
household. A power and control thing. People outside the immediate family like
her. Why are people vicious with their closest ones? She is the Boss above all
other Bosses.
Michael Sodini - A Boss, my brother (Mike Sodini) 216 Horseshoe Dr, Mars PA -
Always the big bully, twice the size of most others. When he bullied or harassed
someone, it was the other person who "deserved it". It was always about him. Way
to self absorbed, too. Still is. Used to like to embarrass guys in front of
their girlfriends. Lots of other shit. Kind of guy you actually loved to hate.
The biggest, most self-centered jagoff I know. He took those bullying "skills"
into the business world and is doing good financially. He is a big wheel only in
his mind. Most people can see thru all his manipulation. He calls only when he
wants something.
Sherry - sister - More of a victim than anything. Copes by exercising much
control over her adult children. We used to be close until her control of L & D
caused a conflict. Never the same after.
David - neph, sis's son (girlfriend Mallory Squires). Good young guy, though.
Lisa - niece, sis's daught. Attractive, smart, emotional - all good YW
qualities.
Idiots:
Andy Pulkowski - I have been in barrooms and church groups. The worst people by
far are the religious types. Especially a right-wing, stiff-faced fundie like
Andy. A condescending, demeaning, passive-aggresive person. Frigid, rigid,
linear and totally inflexible. Being a very serious person, he cannot hide his
frown-lined face. He better not try to smile; lest his face might crack. I knew
children of parents who grew up in strict religious homes. Religion has a
certain stink to it of guilt, shame, fear, and that moral standard that always
contradicts the natural tendencies and desires of a person. Therin lies the
conflict. Young person cannot experiment with things to decide on their own and
establish their own parameters. So they tend to cut loose and really rebel much
worse than the average young person. Ma and Pa never know what goes on. They
easily BS their parents because they want to believe their little one is an
angel. Andy has a young daughter Bethany Pulkowski away at college, High Point
University. I saw her picture on his desk. She's your basic, attractive, young
girl. Please reread my entry made on Nov 5th. That's only one thing she can do.
You Andy types out there need to further strengthen your strict resolve and do
more of the same thing! Because those girls were great when I recall my college
years! She is someone's (or many guy's) little hoe now, I am sure.
Another point about andy. How can someone be cold, vicious, sarcastic and
generally nasty ALL THE TIME and then make the claim about their church life and
how good they are? Total hypocritical idiots.
That's all for now. That felt good.
Let's continue...
