I had a lot of rage in those days when I was in the SAF. Given the opportunity to kill someone, I could and would have. But we never saw combat. I would have loved to lead my tank platoon into a firefight and kill a bunch of fuckers. Leading a tank platoon and killing the enemy is more up close and personal. U can't get the same feeling when you are CO of a Regiment or appointment holder in Brigade HQ. I remember went we did TKD training, they expect you to spar in with them in the way they taught you. But you can always go out out and street fight whoever they pair u with.