You remind me of my acquaintance who had a crippling chronic disease, got retrenched, his wife left him and he was forced to sell his HDB flat and shift back with his parents. He acts like a sore loser these days, blaming the world for his misfortune, and hating his friends and colleagues for being better off than him i.e. married (whether happily or not), have children who are doing well, gainfully employed, live in a private residence, own a car etc. Stop wallowing in self-pity like that loser, or you will definitely become one (if you aren't already).