you are batshit crazy. Lucky for you, I know how to treat people like you for mental illness. It seems according to the DSM-V Manual of Mental Disorders you have BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER. Lets begin with your treatment by filling out a questionnaire:
1) My relationships are very intense, unstable, and alternate between the extremes of over idealizing and undervaluing people who are important to me.
True
False
2) My emotions change very quickly, and I experience intense episodes of sadness, irritability, and anxiety or panic attacks.
Always
Never
Sometimes
True and Always, right?