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I was feeling down this morning. I needed someone to talk to face-to-face.
So I took an urgent leave and made an off-scheduled appointment with my psychotherapist in the morning.
Meeting Dr A is always refreshing for my heart and soul. I think we could be of the same age or maybe she's a year or two older than me.
In case you dirty minded senior Sammyboyers start to have lewd and unwelcoming thoughts, (though she is rather chio in my view), I had no ulterior motives.
She's a good clinical psychologist who had graduated from Australia and had appeared on Mediacorp TV previously. (Recent times, I am not too sure).
Anyway, I had a wonderful heart-to-heart, one-to-one talk. She opened me up. I am now refreshed, emotionally better now.
In this morning's session, I told her I was feeling down and out. She then gave me a piece of paper and requested that I wrote down all my inadequacies and insecurities.
After I spent about 15 minutes itemising my inadequacies and insecurities on paper, she explained her goal/objective of the session to me.
Dr A said she wanted to teach me a simple method to detach myself from all these insecurities and feelings of inadequacies.
Dr A added that if I can separate myself from these inadequacies and insecurities, then I will know my intrinsic value as a person and not be trapped by these negatives.
Dr A advised that I should practise this often when I am down and it will help me to create the space for self healing and emotional reconciliation.
This was what I wrote this morning.
Dr A read all of this.
She said as for No 1, I cant do much but hope, seek medical treatment and pray. Prayers should help cushion my up down emotions and worries.
As for No. 2, (though a bit taken aback) she wasn't embarrassed to address my concern. She said she has had her female patients who are also upset with their small breasts. She advised me to treat my "member" as an unique asset that my future partner would appreciate instead of looking it as liability.
As for No. 3, she said it will be tough to be BF and GF in the same working environment. Further, I am lower in rank than her. There will be others who would allege abuses of power even if there were none. I should consider switching to a different department or company if I want to be in a relationship with my lady boss. Otherwise, I will be attacked or this relationship will severely limit my career potential and or make me a wreck.
We also chatted over a range of other issues and challenges that I currently face.
I felt much better after the session.
So I took an urgent leave and made an off-scheduled appointment with my psychotherapist in the morning.
Meeting Dr A is always refreshing for my heart and soul. I think we could be of the same age or maybe she's a year or two older than me.
In case you dirty minded senior Sammyboyers start to have lewd and unwelcoming thoughts, (though she is rather chio in my view), I had no ulterior motives.
She's a good clinical psychologist who had graduated from Australia and had appeared on Mediacorp TV previously. (Recent times, I am not too sure).
Anyway, I had a wonderful heart-to-heart, one-to-one talk. She opened me up. I am now refreshed, emotionally better now.
In this morning's session, I told her I was feeling down and out. She then gave me a piece of paper and requested that I wrote down all my inadequacies and insecurities.
After I spent about 15 minutes itemising my inadequacies and insecurities on paper, she explained her goal/objective of the session to me.
Dr A said she wanted to teach me a simple method to detach myself from all these insecurities and feelings of inadequacies.
Dr A added that if I can separate myself from these inadequacies and insecurities, then I will know my intrinsic value as a person and not be trapped by these negatives.
Dr A advised that I should practise this often when I am down and it will help me to create the space for self healing and emotional reconciliation.
This was what I wrote this morning.
I'm a mid 30s man and am quite confident in my career and looks.
My inadequacies and insecurities are as follows:
1. I have a atrial fibrillation condition and at times, I feel that I am a walking time bomb. I am not sure when the bomb will explode and kill me. If it happens, I hope I die there and then. Because if I don't die, I will end up as a vegetable and burden others. How to ensure that I die instanteously follwing a severe Afib episode?
2. I have a big penis. I honestly don't like it. Since NS days, I have been a brunt of jokes. If it's possible, can I shorten it maybe to a reasonable 6.5 inches?
3. I am torn between my current GF and my lady boss. I like both of them. But because my boss is closely intertwined into my career path, I tend to like her more now. I have made up my mind to disengage with my current GF because of incompatibilities. I guess we will just be best friends. However, I am worried how my relationship with my lady boss would be in and outside of office. I feel apprehensive.
Dr A read all of this.
She said as for No 1, I cant do much but hope, seek medical treatment and pray. Prayers should help cushion my up down emotions and worries.
As for No. 2, (though a bit taken aback) she wasn't embarrassed to address my concern. She said she has had her female patients who are also upset with their small breasts. She advised me to treat my "member" as an unique asset that my future partner would appreciate instead of looking it as liability.
As for No. 3, she said it will be tough to be BF and GF in the same working environment. Further, I am lower in rank than her. There will be others who would allege abuses of power even if there were none. I should consider switching to a different department or company if I want to be in a relationship with my lady boss. Otherwise, I will be attacked or this relationship will severely limit my career potential and or make me a wreck.
We also chatted over a range of other issues and challenges that I currently face.
I felt much better after the session.
