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1. actually the long story is this, from when I was young (about age 9 or 10) I sort of started liking feminine/cute stuff like crossdressing that kind of stuff. But I didnt tell anyone not even parents. I continued crossdressing throughout sec school and JC meanwhile I also lead a relatively normal life in school. Example I present male in school and dont talk about what I do at home. About when I was 14/15 I realized I liked guys (im not sure if you know but guys have this smell like after PE and I kinda got turned on by it) also I like the idea of being submissive to a guy and like a guy being dominant. Also maybe read too much yaoi lol. At about JC 1, I finally pieced together everything and realized I was trans. But this was almost 4/5 years ago so at the time I thought even if I transitioned im not sure I could pass (pass meaning strangers see you as cis female). At the time I thought for the sake of my future, I would focus on studying and try to forget about all this stuff. This repression led me to feel empty and is one of the primary root causes of depression. I dont want type too long but when you have dysphoria it really can be a very bad source of depression.
So long story short, hiding and keeping my feelings inside made me very depressed. Actually till this day I havent told anyone in real life
https://forums.fuckwarezone.com.sg/threads/ama-im-boymoder-and-trans-xdd.6750793/page-3
1. actually the long story is this, from when I was young (about age 9 or 10) I sort of started liking feminine/cute stuff like crossdressing that kind of stuff. But I didnt tell anyone not even parents. I continued crossdressing throughout sec school and JC meanwhile I also lead a relatively normal life in school. Example I present male in school and dont talk about what I do at home. About when I was 14/15 I realized I liked guys (im not sure if you know but guys have this smell like after PE and I kinda got turned on by it) also I like the idea of being submissive to a guy and like a guy being dominant. Also maybe read too much yaoi lol. At about JC 1, I finally pieced together everything and realized I was trans. But this was almost 4/5 years ago so at the time I thought even if I transitioned im not sure I could pass (pass meaning strangers see you as cis female). At the time I thought for the sake of my future, I would focus on studying and try to forget about all this stuff. This repression led me to feel empty and is one of the primary root causes of depression. I dont want type too long but when you have dysphoria it really can be a very bad source of depression.
So long story short, hiding and keeping my feelings inside made me very depressed. Actually till this day I havent told anyone in real life
https://forums.fuckwarezone.com.sg/threads/ama-im-boymoder-and-trans-xdd.6750793/page-3
