JC girl experiencing depressive episodes and having suicidal thoughts

[micromachine]

I don’t know where to start.

I haven’t been feeling good. I’ve had constant suicidal thoughts, urges to drop out of school and an overall desire to simply disappear and not do anything at all. I believe I am almost shutting down. My mind is unraveling, and I feel really, really sucky right now.

My dad had always encouraged me to enrol in a junior college. Now I’m attending one, I’m not doing good at all. I recently confided in him I was contemplating suicide, yet instead of being consoled I was slapped, albeit not harshly. To be frank, I don’t know how to react. Maybe he thought I was f**king around, or he’s truly disappointed in me. He told me school should be a walk in the park, and probably because I’ve been leading too sheltered a life thus far that's why the thought of death came to me so easily. Thereafter he started calling my boyfriend names and opined our relationship was nonsense.

In honesty my boyfriend is the most supportive person I’ve ever had. Instead of egging me on to quit my studies, he constantly reminds me to show up for classes and complete my school work.

Then again I’ve been invalidated my whole life. I’ve always been told I am blessed with much, that I should be grateful and there’s absolutely nothing to be unhappy about. Well shit did pile up; so now I’m here - wanting to die, wanting everything to stop.

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[amransan]

my humble advice take thing slowly dont aim for the top that is why u are very stress.
manage your time studying and also must enjoy to relax your mind.
getting good grade is not everything the most important is u pass.

and never never thinking of sucide it is really no good. many those u really done it regreted because they left behind loves ones and there so many things they havent experience in life!


i hope my advice reach u and i wish u well and never give up on life!

 

[sweetiepie]

KNN my uncle think she got a useless father as well as useless bf KNN my uncle think the correct way to nurture a green birdie is
1. Test and Know the iq level of the birdie first in priority of the education KNN
2. Let them know in order to be good with studies firstly need to kai qiao the blain KNN once the blain is opened up with a good iq it is already a big step closed to success in studies KNN unfortunately if pt 1 is not ideal then be Frank to them is pointless to force yourself KNN imuho a person with good iq will have no problem to achieve good grades when the blain is opened up KNN
3. Finally let them know very important to be successful in life you MUST have a mind of your own KNN

 

[sweetiepie]

KNN my uncle think she got a useless father as well as useless bf KNN my uncle think the correct way to nurture a green birdie is
1. Test and Know the iq level of the birdie first in priority of the education KNN
2. Let them know in order to be good with studies firstly need to kai qiao the blain KNN once the blain is opened up with a good iq it is already a big step closed to success in studies KNN unfortunately if pt 1 is not ideal then be Frank to them is pointless to force yourself KNN imuho a person with good iq will have no problem to achieve good grades when the blain is opened up KNN
3. Finally let them know very important to be successful in life you MUST have a mind of your own KNN

4. In my uncle's definition of successful in life doesn't mean that person must make a lot of money or be a public figure etc KNN becas even after making alot of money you can still tumble it with making some silly leecision in life KNN that's why my uncle always emphasise having a mind of their own and be clear minded in whatever they are doing KNN in my uncle's motto he will not contribute a single cents or effort to make anyone successful KNN think about it if everyone think alike this world will slowly even out in social and financial status a leeset is necessary KNN

 

[bobby]

If someone tells you that she is suicidal...she most likely isn't.

Suicidal people just do it quietly......

 

[nirvarq]

Depression and anxiety is due to the lost of connection to Source. The Source and purpose of our Creation. If you know not whence you cometh you won't know where you are going.

If you think that life is a fluke accidental like a one time life and then eternal hell or heaven like depicted in certain religions then you've lost the correct or logical and acceptable purpose of life or can't accept the difference of your state-of-being compared to other that seems so lucky born good looking, intelligent, lucky etc...


You have to find and seek why nature have perfect balance and nothing is accidental ever and without cause there can be no effect. Hence life and existence cannot be an accidental at all and there's a reason a purpose.

Also to know that everything is connected and all are xp and lessons perfect as it is in totality. The Universe is always healing, helping, loving you with extreme intensity ie the Love/Light and Light/Love that you are. The Creator's infinite Love and intelligent sits with every entity or unit no matter how small the unit.

That is why even very advance Aliens or Scientist always observe and study plants, insects, animals or nature. All is well as there's no death but new life and new choices and chances infinitely.

If the sufferings in this life does not increase your ability to understand to seek to learn to know and hence the wisdom to forgive, to love and be compassionate hence increasing you vibe or vibration, energy or Consciousness then you ceased to existing in this physical existence when your body is damaged to a certain degree.

Your level of consciousness is always know to you when you dream. That's why there's saying life is an illusion but in dreams is the real lessons. When you are sleeping and dreaming you're not so connected to your physical body and dreams are the necessary balancing mechanism to balance you energy whether you are consciously remembering your dreams or not.

In dreams you may know what your true inner self or Soul is at what point of evolution. If you're blissful and happy, angry, frustrated or fearful etc. If you're always being chased, fighting and harmed or you're peaceful and happy ending in your dreams etc... It tells you who you truly are.

Your state-of-being in your dreams hint your next level, place, pattern for your next incarnation. You true inner self who and what you are is what you would become.

It's all about becoming. It's very blessed and lucky to be Hu-Man the lessons that we may learn here is hundreds of time more intensive than in any other densities or realm because it is so unpredictable and yet full connected. This can be Heavens or Hell indeed depending who and what and where you are is it not ?

All i can tell you is there's no death only new life and what you are today or now decides what you'll become in the future. Just ask yourself always 'who are you' or 'what am i' and slowly the Universe will reveal or lead you to know to understand as what you're seeking is also seeking you.

But you've to evolve to a certain extend to know to learn to have the desire to seek in the first place.

The purpose of Life is to find purpose in living. Good luck be well. :P <3

 

[mojito]

Drama mama lah.