Dear ginfreely, please
don't go mad and kill yourself.
According to:
sammyboy.com/posts/2699016
and:
sammyboy.com/posts/2571169
which I believe to be true, your 38th birthday was either in 2008 or 2009, right?
If yes, that means this year, you are either 48 (born in 1970) or 47 (born in 1971), right?
If yes again,
and if you are still in
good physical and financial health, there is a chance for you to become a:
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Centenarian
or even a:
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Supercentenarian
and maybe even be listed among the following venerable women:
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_the_verified_oldest_women
So,
ganbatte!