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Not sure if you have shared with your family of your situation. You should do so if you have not. I am sure the the family will be very supportive at times like this. You are not alone.
Perhaps its time for you to do alternative working field. If your current work doesn't suits you or make you happy, switch to next company or field. Good luck!