not waking up tomorrow would be a blessing in disguise, as it would imply that you'd be discovered by family members, imagine you die elsewhere, on the road, in your mistress' house, in a chicken house, in a public toilet, in another country, in a dungeon bound & gagged with something up your arse

how is your family going to live with that! so count your blessings if you don't wake up tomorrow in your own bed. Making a will & pre-arranging funeral plans & expenses is as best as you can do.