Google translation
The five years of being a "young lady" left a pain in my heart that I will never be able to erase.
"Young lady" was called a prostitute in ancient times. It was a very unbearable identity, but I had to bear this identity for five whole years.
The five years of being a "young lady" also became a pain in my heart that I will never be able to erase. In the second year of junior high school, I began to rebel and went against my parents in everything. They asked me to study hard, but I refused; they didn't let me hang out with those bad people in school, so I had to fight with them; they talked to me, but I was annoyed by them; they got angry and beat me, but I didn't say a word, staring at them, saying, "If you don't beat me to death today, don't even think about controlling me." In short, during that period, they didn't like me no matter how they looked at me, and I was annoyed no matter how I looked at them.
Finally, on the eve of the high school entrance examination, I had a big fight with my parents again. I didn't want to go to school. I said: Even if you beat me to death today, I won't go to school. Although my parents were very angry, they also knew that even if I took the high school entrance examination, I would definitely not be able to get into high school. So they tried to find a way to let me go to a technical secondary school or vocational school. So they acquiesced to my not going to school. After I stopped going to school, I went out to hang out every day. My parents didn't see me, so they didn't bother to pay attention to me.
During that time, I met Gang, a gangster who was three years older than me. At that time, I thought Gang was very handsome and cool. He walked in front, and there were always more than a dozen younger brothers behind him. Whatever he did, there were always people running around. He felt very awesome. He became a hero in my mind. I always admired him and followed him. He also spoiled me and took me to eat, drink and have fun. Soon I became his official girlfriend and soon I gave him my first time. In order to be with him every day, I secretly stole a thousand yuan from home, left a note, and ran away from home.
During that time, my parents found me many times. Every time they forcibly dragged me back, I tried my best to escape again. After so many times, my parents gave up and stopped looking for me. But Gang and I were not having an easy time at that time. He didn't work and had to support a group of younger brothers. We had no money and he was not as sweet to me as before.
One day, he said happily: We will have money soon, and then said he would take me out to play in the evening. In the evening, we went to a KTV, and there were three of his so-called buddies who I didn't know. We sang and drank, and I didn't know anything while drinking. When I woke up, he was sitting in the box with his legs crossed, counting money and humming. I was lying naked on the sofa. When I sat up, my whole body was in pain, especially my lower body. I grabbed his clothes like crazy and asked: What did you do to me? He said disdainfully: I let you do that with my three buddies, and this is your service fee. It's easy to make money, you can make money while lying down.
I slapped him, you are shameless! He slapped me without hesitation: Don't be shameless, I didn't support you in vain before, and now it's time for you to pay me back. This person made me feel so strange and scary that I left him. But I didn't have the face to go home, and I didn't want to go home. At that time, I had no diploma, no ability, and I thought that part-time jobs were dirty and tiring. Anyway, I had already had my first experience, so I became a "lady" in KTV and started a life of making money by lying down.
In order to receive better customers, I began to package myself. The more I dressed up, the better my business was. The better my business was, the more I was in the mood to dress up. At that time, sometimes I could earn a few thousand yuan a night. Occasionally, I would meet one or two real rich people who would spend tens of thousands of yuan. In this way, I was addicted to the world of feasting and drinking, and spent five years in a mess. In the fifth year of being a lady, I was 23 years old and had hundreds of thousands of savings. Looking at my former classmates, those who fell in love fell in love, and those who got married got married. At that moment, I suddenly wanted to be a normal person again. I quit my full-time job at KTV, moved out of my previous house, left that place, changed my mobile phone card, and cut off all contact with those people. I wanted to start a new life. That year, I took off my makeup, carried my luggage, and returned to my long-lost home.
My mother cried so hard, and my father said with red eyes: It's good to be back. Seeing that I was doing well, they didn't ask anything, and I didn't dare to say anything. Then, I found a job as a salesperson in a shopping mall. Although I didn't earn much money, I felt more at ease than ever before. Later, I met my current husband, who is honest and kind to me. But many times I would wake up in the middle of the night, and the past that I couldn't bear to look back on was like a nightmare that haunted me. Now, my daughter is in junior high school. Looking at my daughter and thinking about myself back then, I really want to slap myself hard. I was really obsessed with the ghost back then. I was as stupid as I could be. It was really a lifelong pain. Every time I face my daughter, I am always afraid that she will ask me: Mom, did you study well in junior high school? Were you rebellious?
Every time I teach my daughter a lesson, I am afraid that she will ask me back one day: You were like that in junior high school, what qualifications do you have to teach me? I am always worried that one day my daughter will know about my past and say that I am not worthy of being a mother and embarrass her. Whose youth is not confused. But my youth was too confused. Although I have turned back, the past will not disappear with time. It will be a stain on my life and a lifelong pain. Every child will have a rebellious period, but some are more obvious and some are less obvious. I hope all parents can take good care of their children and accompany them through their rebellious period smoothly. I hope every child can bloom with his or her own brilliant fragrance.
