My fantasy world is like my last line of defense. It’s my escape from the real world.
When I am depressed, my fantasies keep me going. After a brief daydreaming fantasy, I usually feel vindicated.
For example, just now at around 10am plus, I was angry with my lady boss, I imagined how satisfying it would be, if I had seduced her and had wild pumping action sex with her. The imagination of her moaning away, helpless and begging me to rape her forcibly made me feel like a real man in control. It reversed the reality in life where she gets all the say in office every time.
I know to many senior Sammyboyers, I am like a pathetic and useless young chap that is not man enough. I know you will make fun or laugh at me again. But I swear it has helped me to a certain extent from going deep down into depression or anger.
For instance, I hate that new PRC corrupted new joiner. Sometimes, I would imagine myself wielding a samurai sword and chopping him into a few clean cut pieces and then neatly displaying his head, 2 arms, 2 legs and his remaining body on the floor. Then I take a picture and post on Instagram. Then I feel less angry with him.
However, I do fear that after all these years, I may be addicted to my own fantasy world.
Sometimes, I fear that what I imagine in my fantasy world would become reality. It would be all hell break loose if I force myself on my lady boss and she succumbs to my sexual advances.
I may end up jobless or in jail for rape, get caned or executed for murder of the PRC new joiner.
So I think it's bad for me to indulge in my own fantasy world. I am trying my best not to go in there everyday. It's like there's a devil in there controlling my thoughts.
Do Sammyboyers indulge in their fantasy world? I wonder what are your fantasies.
Do you mind sharing your fantasies when you are upset or angry with someone?
Or maybe senior Sammyboyers can teach me not to fantasise too often.
Please don't flame me. I am just sharing my fantasy world.
When I am depressed, my fantasies keep me going. After a brief daydreaming fantasy, I usually feel vindicated.
For example, just now at around 10am plus, I was angry with my lady boss, I imagined how satisfying it would be, if I had seduced her and had wild pumping action sex with her. The imagination of her moaning away, helpless and begging me to rape her forcibly made me feel like a real man in control. It reversed the reality in life where she gets all the say in office every time.
I know to many senior Sammyboyers, I am like a pathetic and useless young chap that is not man enough. I know you will make fun or laugh at me again. But I swear it has helped me to a certain extent from going deep down into depression or anger.
For instance, I hate that new PRC corrupted new joiner. Sometimes, I would imagine myself wielding a samurai sword and chopping him into a few clean cut pieces and then neatly displaying his head, 2 arms, 2 legs and his remaining body on the floor. Then I take a picture and post on Instagram. Then I feel less angry with him.
However, I do fear that after all these years, I may be addicted to my own fantasy world.
Sometimes, I fear that what I imagine in my fantasy world would become reality. It would be all hell break loose if I force myself on my lady boss and she succumbs to my sexual advances.
I may end up jobless or in jail for rape, get caned or executed for murder of the PRC new joiner.
So I think it's bad for me to indulge in my own fantasy world. I am trying my best not to go in there everyday. It's like there's a devil in there controlling my thoughts.
Do Sammyboyers indulge in their fantasy world? I wonder what are your fantasies.
Do you mind sharing your fantasies when you are upset or angry with someone?
Or maybe senior Sammyboyers can teach me not to fantasise too often.
Please don't flame me. I am just sharing my fantasy world.
