The problem with you Krafty bro is that you have too many negative thoughts in your head... Learn to look on the bright side of life... I do not despise you at all and for sure I don't look down on your cabby job..In fact I find you to be one of the star attractions here.. Sometimes I find you funny, sometimes I really do pity you, sometimes I find it exasperating reading on your constant whining threads.. I'm sure you are an ok guy... Don't be too depressed about your life.. Learn to be happy again and think more positively... Cherish and appreciate your life more.. Slowly and slowly you'll be back to your good old days again..